An unexpected thing happened last week. After three weeks away from my blog, I decided I should come out and tell people why I didn't feel like writing. A writer never leads her readers with loose ends, right? I felt like I had to be honest.
That wasn't the unexpected part. The surprise came the next day when I wrote my first 1K since summer began. And then I did again the next day. And I wrote more the day after that--not only on 'Chasing Monsters' but on the erotica as well.
And it feels really good to be back
I didn't really admit it in my last post, but my friend's depression had affected me to the point that I couldn't write. I didn't admit that even to my friends. They knew I was sad, and that I had a few things going on in my life. I talked to them about it, but I hated doing it. Felt like 'TMI'. I felt like I didn't have the right to hurt. It wasn't my depression, it was his. What was I crying about?
So coming out and telling EVERYONE was even bigger and scarier. Apparently it was a good and necessary thing because my mojo is back. I feel liberated. Once again I'm doing the things I love, like writing and gardening. See my veggies? (pictured above)
Thanks to all my friends and acquaintances for your support and kind words from this blog, Twitter, Facebook, text, etc.
Thanks to you, everybody's stuck with me. Love to you all.
As a writer, you're predisposed to soak up the feelings around you. (Other professions do it, too.) I'm so glad that opening up helped open up EVERYthing.
ReplyDeleteRock on!
Thanks so much MJ!
DeleteYou are right. I guess I couldn't help taking it with me. I don't know if it's because I write, or because I now have cats or because I'm getting mushy as I get older!